Longing!

If you call yourself a disciple of any person, the only real gift they can give you is to send you away.  A longing will begin that after awhile will force you to return, and  you fall at the master's feet with great humility.  Again you are told, "Go away".  Over and over you come and you go, and the longing increases till it is unbearable.  Finally something happens that you did not expect.  A door opens inside you that you did'nt know existed, but which the master saw all along.  It is the longing that creates the opening, not the satisfaction of finding another person who seems to have satisfied their longing for God.  It will never be satisfied within you until you  realize  that God, or the master, have never left your side, no matter where  you wandered off to.

~ Jeshua/The Art of Spiritual Peacemaking ~